The "Spiritual Cold."
The "Dry Spell."
The "I-Can't-Feel-God" times in our lives.
Do you know what I am talking about? It happens to each of us at some point ... ehem ... or many points ... in our walk with Christ. I have had a Spiritual Cold for a few weeks now. The time home from the mission field has not been good to me. But yesterday, my fever broke:
Hello, Lord. It's me, Bailey. I feel I should write like that because I have not been faithful in meeting with you. I have not been drawing near to you, and now I feel distant.
I feel like I can hardly reach you with my voice -- like you are at the opposite end of a long hallway -- and like if you spoke, I would hardly be able to hear.
I want to ask for your forgiveness ... but that seems selfish and undeserved -- because it is undeserved! I know that in Christ I am already pardoned, but that seems selfish and undeserved too -- because it is!
Lord, you know my heart. You know my dirt and my sin. I have been selfish with my time. I haven't sought you. I haven't held you in your right place in my heart.
Lord, I am sorry. I don't like this selfish, distant part of me. But it is always with me, telling me that my God -- the Creator of the world -- can wait.
I bought into the devil's traps, Lord. Would you help me escape them? Would you give me back a love for you and a love for your Word and not for the things of this world?
Lord, help me change.
I wrote that prayer yesterday morning. And do you know something? God heard me. As soon as I started drawing near to him, he drew Himself near to me -- which is how it usually works (see James 4:8).
And today, I find myself in Love with my Lord again -- savoring the truths from his Word, and loving my time in communion with him.
Are you dealing with a Spiritual Cold? Perhaps, like me, you have walked too far away to hear God's voice. Perhaps, like me, you have been loving the world and not loving God. How has that worked for you?
"Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. . . Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." -- James 4:7-8,10
Rest assured, my brother, my sister, that God does not stand far off. He waits for you. Draw near to him and he will draw near to you. Go to him and let your fever break.