I. Am. Tired. Anyone else?
You sit in a meeting / class / social gathering and you think,
Where did all of my energy go?
I wish I could be my “normal” self.
If I were laying in bed right now, I'd be dead-asleep in exactly 21.4 seconds.
I'm burnt out, yet I feel this pressure to be energetic and bubbly and lively – to slap that angry resting-face off my head and smile the heck out of this day!
(Side note: If you ever see me wearing what looks like a frown, fight the urge to run away in fear! I don't hate you – that's probably just the exhaustion behind my eyes.)
Am I the only one wondering why I feel this way? There's nothing wrong. I am content. I love where I am, and I love the people I am with. But I am just … drained.
These “drainy” seasons come every now and again, and I take them as my reminder to slow down and rest. That's not as easy as it sounds, though, is it? In fact, the decision to rest and re-charge can feel very selfish, considering that I live on the campus of a Children's Home which houses 90+ kids who yearn for love and attention.
But you know what? This tiredness will pass as it always does. In a few days I'll feel better. My laugh will be genuine and the smile on my face will be a natural one.
Until then, I'll take this cue. Instead of resting from the work, I'll work from a place of rest.
I'll spend this time with my Lord who knows my heart and knows my need for a deeper relationship with him. And he will fill me, as he always does, with his perfect, perfect peace.